Betrayal

Of lies and deceit

Betrayal.

It's an ugly word, filled with anger, anxiety, loss... it hurts like stab wounds... it could break one who has not known it before...

I draw my strength from He who is Holy, for in my weakness He is strong. He gives me courage to face new days, strength to fight in new ways. He knew what was going to happen, and to a degree so did I. I took my chances... I took my risks... I gave the benefit of the doubt, and as the doubt grows a rift is created between my heart and another's.

But God is good! He romances me in ways I cannot put into spoken words - gives me friends with such a fiery passion and loyalty that I see a glimpse of His heart through theirs. (I love you guys! You are my blessings, every one of you, do not doubt that I thank Him for you every day!)

I am worthy, I am strong, I am a woman, and I am His Lover, and He is Mine.

Will I trust again?

Oh yes, as surely as I breathe this air around me, for without trust how will I ever love? I will not avoid the Highs in order to escape the lows!! I will embrace life in all its fullness, pain and happiness side by side, as brothers and comrades in arms. And He will be with me, my comforter, my tender-hearted protector, my life.

Off-topic I have a new poem... and would love your comments - Angel.