Calm
For my life is in His hands
I have just finished praying fervently that God will show me His plan for my life. Oh Lord, I will go, where you lead me, just show me where, show me how, show me what you would have me do. I have no concrete answers but a whispering in my mind (as before) that I should stay here another year. There are reasons why I do not want to do this, but also more and more I see reasons why I should, and why I want to. Some of these reasons are as follows:
- We had our first church service in Alpedrete today - and we had 18 people altogether - PRAISE GOD!!! it's so incredibly exciting to see what he is doing in this place, and to be a part of it, from the very beginning, it would be such a shame to leave it in June.
- Due to new management at school I am beginning to get into my stride, and do more work (which I am enjoying) to build up a fantastic learning environment for those kids. Yes it is taking a while to get to the stage we should have been at at the beginning of the year, but THINK what it will be like next year!!
- I don't feel ready to leave yet, I feel like my job here still is not done.
This is a God-story not a Liz-Story, and He will lead me as he sees fit. In proverbs there are many verses that say in different ways: We may plan our lives, but God's will will be done. No matter what we do to wreck it. I don't want to wreck it. I want to follow His ways. I want His story to be seen in my life, and for people to come to him because of it. I long for growth, for spiritual fruit to be borne through my life, and through the church here in Alpie. I'm so excited about everything that He is doing!!
On the matter of relationships, I am feeling calmer, again because whatever happens is up to God and I am feeling that really strongly and comfortingly of late. Today's Daily Wisdom really spoke to me on that matter. The matter of love. I am pleased to say that I am looking to pursue that kind of Godly love that is described there. I am a sinner, but through what Christ did I am a holy person, and with His help I have started again in the area of love. I will get it right this time. But I am calm. I was not calm yesterday (sorry Gordon) but God is good, and just a few minutes spent with Him calms the spirits :)