Come away with me
The beloveds cry to my heart
I spoke to Mbo again yesterday, he's such a blessing on my life - my spiritual mentor, my confidante, and just so wise it blows my mind sometimes. :)
We were talking about relationships and so forth and suchlike and it came to a point where he said "Can I ask you a totally unrelated question?" I said, of course, go ahead, and he continued. "If Jesus walked into the room where you are sitting right now at this moment what do you think He'd say to you?"
I thought for a while and said: "I think He'd say, in a jokey way: get off that computer and give me a hug!"
Mbo chuckled at that. And then he said "You know, what I see is something different. I think He'd take your hand in His and say "Beloved, come away with me and spend some time with me" You know... if He said that to you, I think you'd forget all about the computer wouldn't you?"
I nodded quietly, tears welling up in my eyes. Mbo continued. "Have you ever been so in love with a person that you cannot bear to be away from them? That it psysically hurts to be apart?" I affirmed I had. "Well that is how He loves you. And how He longs to be loved in return. Wouldn't you like to feel that for Him."
By this point quiet tears rolled down my cheeks. It all resonated in so many of the things I've been reading and experiencing lately. Jesus wants to have a love affair with me, He wants to be my passion, my desire, my beloved.
But there are things in the way... I can't seem to just step away from this "say a prayer" mentality. My conviction is stronger than it ever was, but my passion is gone. It's like my head's run away with my heart for a change.
I ache to run away with Him... I know that He wants me too... but for that to happen I have to make a decision and DO something...!
There is a mountain I always see on the way to school (have refered to it in previous posts) and it always brings me to my knees in adoration. Jesus calls to me in that mountain every morning "Beloved, come away with me"...
Please pray for me.