I had a Dream Part 2
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Tonight I was able to talk to and pray with my dear friend Mbo thanks to the miracle that is Skype (we loves it my preciousss!) Mbo is a friend I met on a christian dating site (I know, I know, hush) a long time ago, and has since proved to be completely indispensable with matters spiritual. He has such a keen spiritual awareness and annointing, and he speaks with such wisdom, authority and grace.
I don't really want to go into all the details of what he said to me and prayed over me, I was going to, but then I realised that most of it was fairly personal, and really between me and God, and Mbo as the witness. However, I will say a couple of things that Mbo suggested were things that stirred in his spirit after praying that God would bring interpretation to him.
First he said that he felt the words guilt, dominance and control come to mind. Those of you that know me well will know these are three things everpresent in my life, things that have broken me in the past, some of the scars still remaining. Mbo said that the bit about the dream post that most stuck out to him was:
It was the first dream I've ever had where I have made decisions and felt conciously in control of what I was saying or doing. Most of my dreams involve things being done TO me, things over which I have no control
He said he felt this was key, and as he said it I realised also that what he was saying was true. In the dream I walked with authority, power and was clear-thinking. I had the sense that this is not the reality of what I am living like now, but as Mbo said, I am moving towards that. Making baby steps, yes, but I'm really starting to move away from the time of brokeness and submission to control. I'm starting to be bolder under God's authority, and weilding God's power with the confidence pertaining to a child of God. As it is written in Romans 8:15:
15For [the Spirit which] you have now received [is] not a spirit of slavery to put you once more in bondage to fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption [the Spirit producing sonship] in [the bliss of] which we cry, Abba (Father)! Father!
As he prayed, Mbo declared words similar over me, proclaiming "Lizzie, God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power and love and of clear thinking."
He told me that he felt almost certain that the Spirit was telling him that I was entering a new season, a season of healing and of building up, a season where I would learn and grow to become the Lizzie of my dream, the Lizzie that fears nothing or no-one but God himself, but walks in confidence, faith, power and love. A Lizzie who is not submissive to any person, a Lizzie who's God is the only one in control. A Lizzie who is never again going to be a slave again to fear.
Things are happening... :)